If its true, if what they say that you pay for every good thing that happens to you, then well I'm a living example. If the tragedy of physics was the payback of the wow of chemistry, then..I wouldnt know what to do. Cause it sucks to have extremes, to have your problems and not-understanding(s)-of-concepts so much highlighted in your face, cause I cant take it, and it sucks to be at the bottom of this bottomless cannyon of feelings again. Worse, nothing's lifting me up to feel confident again. I am in need of a booster if you need to know. And so emotionless now; broken/false smiles when you're supposed to be happy for people, not that I'm not, its just that I'm reminded of my predicament every single time with every reminder.

Now I'm just seeming like an emo potato here, :

Guess I'd have to work realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly hard now. Kaoz.

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Kay brighter/happier note: Good Friday's coming yayy! 3 day break I love that.

Friday's no excuse for slacking right? Right, in a mugger's perspective.

/I know I shouldnt be pondering on this already, but I just cant get it out of my mind. Is there someone other me? Am I the only exception? Cause I might as well be obsessed over what we are now, and you know so well the lines are blurring. Just answer me, am I the only one confused/perplexed over what this is, what we are?