For the past days/months/year, I've been losing focus.
I wasnt paying attention to what was really important, what really mattered. Let that be in the past tense now, for now I see. I saw that I couldnt keep on waiting on for forever, cause forever didnt meant you would come, forever didnt mean I would finally be able to be yours, forever just meant me with a broken heart and me forsaking myself for you. So now, let this be the last time, the final time, I ever think of you. Cause from now on, I'll fight thoughts of you, fight the joy when I see you, fight the feeling when I get when we walk side by side. If you aint coming, aint saying what you feeling, I couldnt be waiting on for you. I'm done, baby I really am. I'm done looking at you and not being able to express what I'm feeling, done waiting for the day when you'd turn around and say " you've been the only thing on my mind" , done knowing you dont care, done hoping for you to love me back. I'm done. I'm done.
But just before everything, I cried when I thought of us yesterday.
But you dont care, you dont know, right?
Done, done, done.
If only things were so easy.